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Wednesday, September 3, 2008
Acting Journal Entry 1
I've come to a realization about this blog. My initial intent was to bring value to others, to share what I have learned or who I am in a way that will entertain and give back what I have taken. Now, that has come out jumbled and sloppy in parts. To try and provide you with better value, I will make my blogs more concise (more to the point, shorter, or otherwise) and readable. I find that some material that interests me, and that I write about, is more for my value - with the value to others following as a consequence to that. That is not a healthy model for mutual growth. In my orientation towards ends (such as financial ends), I have focused too much on the results (money and abundance) and lost sight of the meaningful process. I am still developing as is my blog.
I will live my life entirely in the present moment, so to put my mind ahead of Now is to essentially not live.
Now, why I really came here. My first journal entry for my acting course:
September 2, 2008
Today was my first acting class. First day, anyhow. This is some fun stuff: for warm-up our massive class walked around like a random school of fish swimming through a coral reef - slightly rushed and disorganized. Beautiful. I've found my place.
Adriana (my instructor) had us imagine that we were walking barefoot in the sand. Suddenly, the water crept up to our toes and underneath our feet. Cool. I could begin to feel the tingles and movement of it already. Just when we thought it was safe and sunny, the water morphed to honey. Honey to thicker honey. Soon, I couldn't even move my leg to get it out of the honey. One yank and I was sprawled on my back - stuck to the sticky ground like gum to a shoe. The fall was fast; the ground was sweet; the freedom short-lived.
Later, when we were plenty warmed-up, we played the number game. Another first for me ; glad it won't be the last. The number game involves working with a group to reach a specified count. For example, five people form a circle and begin counting one at a time to reach twenty. However, each time there is a fumble with number order or if two people say the same number the game restarts. This can be a challenging and rewarding activity: challenging to reach silent communication with the ensemble, rewarding to reach a level of open, flowing understanding. Although the open, flow of understanding and instinct can be temporary, it is far too valuable an experience to not strive for.
It's important to keep your channels open because the number game demands your cooperation to flow two ways. Outgoing energy is as key as in-going. How clearly and unbiased you can project your intent and number into the circle heavily effects what returns to you from your group. Moreover, it is equally fundamental to try and listen with as clean a slate as possible. To be as transparent as glass, as blank as snow. It takes much discipline to find the balance between the instinctual action/inaction that one is accustomed to and the conscious decision to become still and receptive. It's more than finding one's place. It's developing from that place or using it as a springboard to move in another direction. Ultimately, you decide what fits and what's forced.
I will live my life entirely in the present moment, so to put my mind ahead of Now is to essentially not live.
Now, why I really came here. My first journal entry for my acting course:
September 2, 2008
Today was my first acting class. First day, anyhow. This is some fun stuff: for warm-up our massive class walked around like a random school of fish swimming through a coral reef - slightly rushed and disorganized. Beautiful. I've found my place.
Adriana (my instructor) had us imagine that we were walking barefoot in the sand. Suddenly, the water crept up to our toes and underneath our feet. Cool. I could begin to feel the tingles and movement of it already. Just when we thought it was safe and sunny, the water morphed to honey. Honey to thicker honey. Soon, I couldn't even move my leg to get it out of the honey. One yank and I was sprawled on my back - stuck to the sticky ground like gum to a shoe. The fall was fast; the ground was sweet; the freedom short-lived.
Later, when we were plenty warmed-up, we played the number game. Another first for me ; glad it won't be the last. The number game involves working with a group to reach a specified count. For example, five people form a circle and begin counting one at a time to reach twenty. However, each time there is a fumble with number order or if two people say the same number the game restarts. This can be a challenging and rewarding activity: challenging to reach silent communication with the ensemble, rewarding to reach a level of open, flowing understanding. Although the open, flow of understanding and instinct can be temporary, it is far too valuable an experience to not strive for.
It's important to keep your channels open because the number game demands your cooperation to flow two ways. Outgoing energy is as key as in-going. How clearly and unbiased you can project your intent and number into the circle heavily effects what returns to you from your group. Moreover, it is equally fundamental to try and listen with as clean a slate as possible. To be as transparent as glass, as blank as snow. It takes much discipline to find the balance between the instinctual action/inaction that one is accustomed to and the conscious decision to become still and receptive. It's more than finding one's place. It's developing from that place or using it as a springboard to move in another direction. Ultimately, you decide what fits and what's forced.
Friday, August 29, 2008
Practice makes perfect: Meandering thoughts on subjective and objective reality
Hello Fellow Members of the Passionately Curious,
Today I'd like to talk about the nature of reality. For some time now I've played with the notion of objective reality and subjective reality. Up until recently, my main thought was that there is an objective reality and a subjective reality. Let me explain why I think/thought this to be true.
First, I should define subjectivity and objectivity. Subjectivity is the individual experience, the personal and idiosyncratic perception. Objectivity is the collective experience that the whole (the sum) exists, independent of subjective thought.
Inspired by the likes of Carl Rogers and my psychology teacher Dr. Cera, one of the key implicit concepts of humanistic therapy is to acknowledge that someone's experience is real. For it is real. To them, that is what they perceive, and I am not one in position to judge that to be false. Though I may not agree, or I may "know better," to acknowledge the other's thought is to accept that, in terms of them, it is true. In regards to objective reality, subjective reality fits subsequently to it on the individual scale. In the microsphere of sovereign experience, everybody has his/her own perceptions of reality that are purely unique. Moreover, through this thinking, I believe that there exists and objective reality independent and outside of subjective reality. That is, I can serve two equivalent portions of the same pie to two different people and receive two separate opinions. Based on this thought-frame, person A likes the pie, person B does not, and there still exists the pie which is the objective. This neatly illustrates the factual baseline of the situation - but to me it somehow feels empty of something. Hold that thought for a minute.
To continue, there is a reason that seems very intuitively electrifying. A justification for why this could be true. I'll try best to explain this reason with some questions (As ee cummings said: "Always the beautiful answer who asks a more beautiful question). What if thoughts create experience? What if we incarnated into physicality to agree and abide by certain rules like gravity? What if anything is possible through belief, but one term of the 3D contract is that if your belief subjectively interferes with an other's, that it will not manifest? (<--That one of the basic principles of free will is respect, and that the universe respects conflicting beliefs) That the rules of this incarnation are subject to greater metaphysical rules like the law of attraction? What if our subconscious is thinking the 3D contract into existence? That our conscious subjective experience is true, while at the same time, our subconscious initiates its own agenda?
Naturally, given that there is an objective reality and a subjective reality (which in an infinite universe there absolutely is), why does this matter? Good question. I think what I'm trying to outline and imply, is that beyond this scientific analysis, there are some missing spiritual implications. What I've just mentioned above serves well to expand the mind and consider alternate possibilities - but there is a missing practicality. The shortcomings of science is that it only says what was/is. Living is fulfillingly is being what was/is/will be.
Anyhow, that was what I thought. Recently, I've had this thought about a purely subjective existence. That all I've just said is true, but there is more to it. And there is less to it. Allow me to explain, once again.
The limits to objective reality, is that its merely a collection of shared experience. It assumes that people's individual realities are just individual and inconsequential to the whole picture. But in truth, everybody has their own "whole picture" - well, at least implicitly. I'm still trying to figure out that for myself!
But this notion of reality is flawed in the sense that everybody's potential for thought is so limitlessly creative. Though popularly underutilized, this boundless capacity to create and affect and change exists. Only your personal experience will prove that to you. This is circular, yes, but life is more a circle than a line.
Given that everybody has their personal thoughts and beliefs, and that this is in such a large quantity - for them to work in the same reality there must be very specific framework. That is, because we are subject to the laws of gravity, we all buy into the same belief. And because people believe many different things which are true for themselves, subjective reality is therefore more expansive. Because it is more expansive, I feel it is more complete as all possibilities already exist.
All of this has been taxing for my mind (yours, too I'm sure) so I'll leave you at that. My desire to blog and my personal capacity to do so are not quite congruent. My eyes are bigger than my stomach. Hopefully, though, it is through these moderately unclear postings that I will be able to filter and synthesize what truly resonates.
Today I'd like to talk about the nature of reality. For some time now I've played with the notion of objective reality and subjective reality. Up until recently, my main thought was that there is an objective reality and a subjective reality. Let me explain why I think/thought this to be true.
First, I should define subjectivity and objectivity. Subjectivity is the individual experience, the personal and idiosyncratic perception. Objectivity is the collective experience that the whole (the sum) exists, independent of subjective thought.
Inspired by the likes of Carl Rogers and my psychology teacher Dr. Cera, one of the key implicit concepts of humanistic therapy is to acknowledge that someone's experience is real. For it is real. To them, that is what they perceive, and I am not one in position to judge that to be false. Though I may not agree, or I may "know better," to acknowledge the other's thought is to accept that, in terms of them, it is true. In regards to objective reality, subjective reality fits subsequently to it on the individual scale. In the microsphere of sovereign experience, everybody has his/her own perceptions of reality that are purely unique. Moreover, through this thinking, I believe that there exists and objective reality independent and outside of subjective reality. That is, I can serve two equivalent portions of the same pie to two different people and receive two separate opinions. Based on this thought-frame, person A likes the pie, person B does not, and there still exists the pie which is the objective. This neatly illustrates the factual baseline of the situation - but to me it somehow feels empty of something. Hold that thought for a minute.
To continue, there is a reason that seems very intuitively electrifying. A justification for why this could be true. I'll try best to explain this reason with some questions (As ee cummings said: "Always the beautiful answer who asks a more beautiful question). What if thoughts create experience? What if we incarnated into physicality to agree and abide by certain rules like gravity? What if anything is possible through belief, but one term of the 3D contract is that if your belief subjectively interferes with an other's, that it will not manifest? (<--That one of the basic principles of free will is respect, and that the universe respects conflicting beliefs) That the rules of this incarnation are subject to greater metaphysical rules like the law of attraction? What if our subconscious is thinking the 3D contract into existence? That our conscious subjective experience is true, while at the same time, our subconscious initiates its own agenda?
Naturally, given that there is an objective reality and a subjective reality (which in an infinite universe there absolutely is), why does this matter? Good question. I think what I'm trying to outline and imply, is that beyond this scientific analysis, there are some missing spiritual implications. What I've just mentioned above serves well to expand the mind and consider alternate possibilities - but there is a missing practicality. The shortcomings of science is that it only says what was/is. Living is fulfillingly is being what was/is/will be.
Anyhow, that was what I thought. Recently, I've had this thought about a purely subjective existence. That all I've just said is true, but there is more to it. And there is less to it. Allow me to explain, once again.
The limits to objective reality, is that its merely a collection of shared experience. It assumes that people's individual realities are just individual and inconsequential to the whole picture. But in truth, everybody has their own "whole picture" - well, at least implicitly. I'm still trying to figure out that for myself!
But this notion of reality is flawed in the sense that everybody's potential for thought is so limitlessly creative. Though popularly underutilized, this boundless capacity to create and affect and change exists. Only your personal experience will prove that to you. This is circular, yes, but life is more a circle than a line.
Given that everybody has their personal thoughts and beliefs, and that this is in such a large quantity - for them to work in the same reality there must be very specific framework. That is, because we are subject to the laws of gravity, we all buy into the same belief. And because people believe many different things which are true for themselves, subjective reality is therefore more expansive. Because it is more expansive, I feel it is more complete as all possibilities already exist.
All of this has been taxing for my mind (yours, too I'm sure) so I'll leave you at that. My desire to blog and my personal capacity to do so are not quite congruent. My eyes are bigger than my stomach. Hopefully, though, it is through these moderately unclear postings that I will be able to filter and synthesize what truly resonates.
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